Now, 41 years later, I'm sad to say that I have missed sharing this special day with my son for the past couple of years, not because of my unavailability, but because Graham has chosen to exclude me from his life. I can't fathom his reasons - he has never bothered to discuss them with me. He just doesn't want me in his life. I think about him every day and wonder what I ever did to cause this. And I wonder what I could possibly do to rectify the situation.
I regularly follow his public activities on line, noting the various performances of his two musical projects, "The Railbenders" and "The Jekylls." Some day I hope to attend one of his shows in disguise, just to be the secret proud papa who has watched and encouraged his part-time career in music since his teenage days as drummer for the group, "Tiffany and the Country Club."
I doubt that he ever visits this website, but as I have no other way to reach out to him, I'll use this forum to say:
"Happy Birthday, dear son. Hope it was a good one for you. And I pray that someday you'll find it in your heart to reach out to me with love in your heart. Please know that I will always love you - I think about you every day - and I hope that someday we can be best friends again. Love always, Dad."
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