This is completely fiction. Totally fic.
________________________________________________John Brightman: Come over?
DSA: If you pick up all the videos off the floor and stack them up, I will visit you.
John Brightman: Deal.
(In this part Brightman makes Ice-T, serves DSA and picks up the videos and stacks them up. Then...)
John Brightman: I forget that when posting, how vulnerable this message board really is. Not just for posting but to view. Is there for all to see and I forget that.
DSA: I would have thought you'd known better.
John Brightman: I had something to say. ..I mean, what people know and how they react to what I write is not part of the scenario project I am trying to insegment for my own understanding.
DSA: What is it?
John Brightman: I find it real hard, to come up, with a certain dress up, that allows me to fit in.
I'm a stiff. A geek.
I try to not be that way.
I don't like rap at all. I thought by writing rap, that it wll cover my depression.
I am depressed. Hurt. Is no secret. Is no secret that I am hurt. ..I can handle been hurt. Is pain. The worse, I cry and the wotrse that can happen is crying.
I cry so hard it almost feels like, God even God is wtaching me cry and it feels like even God gets a little sympathy and will make your wish come true. But, looking up to the cieling, suddenly the hopeless gloat comesback. And is sad again.
Funerals and Obituaries are sad. But so is rejection, when you are in love with someone. That rejection is what makes women become protitutes. A hopeless feeling. I mean, I am straight. I'm just saying, I understand what feeling hopeless is like.
Sitting in a bench. Watching happy people walk around laughingly. Meanwhile, as they are happy, one is sad. With the eyes closed. because the tears, shut the lid of gthe eyes. Then you open the lid but only have way.
Is like holding the next waterfall of rain.
DSA, she doesn't love me. She doesn't think of me. She wouldn't.
DSA: Who is she?
John Brightman: Thats not important. Whats important is that she rejected me. But again, I forget how vulnerable this board can be.
