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Posted by Amelia
on May 14, 2009, 6:38 pm
I just got out of a 5 month long relationship -- of which was both emotionally and physically abusive. I used to think of myself as a strong willed person and I somehow managed to let this guy strip me of everything I'd known. In the same aspect (and here is my dilema) --- I want to be with him! I have a 3 year old son, and was civil/friends with the father up until I started dating this other guy. The father of my child doesn't want him anywhere around. Everything is working against the odds for me to be in this relationship, yet even after all of the abuse-- I want this guy. I dont know if he got into my head somehow and took control of that or what in the world happened.. but I need help. I need someone to smack me upside the head and say, 'Amy!! What are you thinking?!' -- or if there are any other people out there who have been abused.. I want to hear what you have to say. In my heart of hearts, I truly believe that this guy is a good guy. He has some major flaws due to abandonment issues, and in trying to make sure I wouldn't run away, he wound up smothering me which only chased me away anyways. Aside from the yelling and throwing things and being controlling -- we're into all of the same outdoors things and he's great with my son. However, I feel like I'm being selfish in wanting this relationship and subjecting my son to any form of violence whatsoever. Any suggestions? Pllleaaaaaseee be nice! God only knows I've been through enough harsh words recently. I don't think I could handle anymore!
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