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Re: The 4th Step and self-image

Posted by Marie on 10/14/2006, 10:44 pm, in reply to "Re: The 4th Step and self-image"
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Hi - I'm so sorry you are experiencing something similar! I had a sponsor when I went through this step, but I was actually quite ill, and it was beyond her - it would have been beyond anyone except a professional (and even they struggled) - to effectively combat what was going on in my head.
I had to stop... But I was brave enough to come to this forum and actually participate from time to time(!) and that is a good thing. I trust and experience that there is a lot to be learned here, and there are a lot of caring people - which is what we all need.
Thank you so much!
--Previous Message--
: Hi everyone,
: I can relate to everything that you
: are saying. Its nice to have a place
: to be able to talk about thins. I am
: new at this. Marie, I wanted to let
: you know that everything you said is
: at this time exactly how I feel. I
: am working on trying to get myself
: balanced out. I feel really bad
: right now because of the medication
: and all of the side effects. My
: doctor does not think its the
: medication. And I have to go to all
: these other doctors. All I can say
: at this point is that you have put
: all the words of what I would have
: said. And I thank you for that. I
: just wanted to say also. I got to
: the 4th step and and that's when a
: hek broke out. I keep stopping. I
: am trying to get my meds stable. I
: just don't have depression I have
: another chemical embalance that has
: depression and the other phase is
: being happy. Thats when I can work
: the program. Anyway I will talk
: about the depression part. The good
: thing is I am part taking n the
: meetings and getting communication
: with my doc. and going to the
: meetings and talking to my sponsor.
: My self image right now is very
: distorted however I want my life
: back and better than before. Any I
: am looking for a new doctor just
: like a new HP. Thanks all have a
: great one.
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: --Previous Message--
: Hi There...
: I joined OA when my medication had
: first stabilized my depression and I
: was starting to feel better. I was
: working the program until I reached
: the 4th step. Because of my low
: self-esteem and knowledge that I
: alone am responsible for the bad
: decisions in my life, and for all my
: resentments, I found this step to be
: completely debilitating. I didn't
: mean to beat myself up, but going
: through this step made me feel
: terrible about myself, adn cemented
: all my bad feelings. I eventually
: left the rooms because of this,
: despite the love and support of my
: fellow sufferers.
: As a person suffering from
: depression - low self-esteem, maybe
: even self-hatred, or at the very
: least, self-dislike - how did you
: get through this step? I read the
: description of how one does the 4th
: Step on this site, but even doing
: that raised fears of the process and
: the beginning of bad feelings...
: I know the depression distorts my
: view of myself; I'm once again
: stable on my meds and am abstinent
: for today. But I want to make a
: fundamental change in my
: relationship with food...how do I
: get through this step? How did you
: do it?
: Thanks so much...
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