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Posted by timbewolfe
on 9/30/2006, 11:30 am, in reply to "The 4th Step and self-image"
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Hi everyone,
I can relate to everything that you are saying. Its nice to have a place to be able to talk about thins. I am new at this. Marie, I wanted to let you know that everything you said is at this time exactly how I feel. I am working on trying to get myself balanced out. I feel really bad right now because of the medication and all of the side effects. My doctor does not think its the medication. And I have to go to all these other doctors. All I can say at this point is that you have put all the words of what I would have said. And I thank you for that. I just wanted to say also. I got to the 4th step and and that's when a hek broke out. I keep stopping. I am trying to get my meds stable. I just don't have depression I have another chemical embalance that has depression and the other phase is being happy. Thats when I can work the program. Anyway I will talk about the depression part. The good thing is I am part taking n the meetings and getting communication with my doc. and going to the meetings and talking to my sponsor. My self image right now is very distorted however I want my life back and better than before. Any I am looking for a new doctor just like a new HP. Thanks all have a great one.
--Previous Message--
: Hi There...
: I joined OA when my medication had
: first stabilized my depression and I
: was starting to feel better. I was
: working the program until I reached
: the 4th step. Because of my low
: self-esteem and knowledge that I
: alone am responsible for the bad
: decisions in my life, and for all my
: resentments, I found this step to be
: completely debilitating. I didn't
: mean to beat myself up, but going
: through this step made me feel
: terrible about myself, adn cemented
: all my bad feelings. I eventually
: left the rooms because of this,
: despite the love and support of my
: fellow sufferers.
: As a person suffering from
: depression - low self-esteem, maybe
: even self-hatred, or at the very
: least, self-dislike - how did you
: get through this step? I read the
: description of how one does the 4th
: Step on this site, but even doing
: that raised fears of the process and
: the beginning of bad feelings...
: I know the depression distorts my
: view of myself; I'm once again
: stable on my meds and am abstinent
: for today. But I want to make a
: fundamental change in my
: relationship with food...how do I
: get through this step? How did you
: do it?
: Thanks so much...
:
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