Posted by Kathy on 6/19/2006, 4:37 pm, in reply to "Re: Mutual friends"
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Meeyu, It happens that I didn't go and they called and invited me to come next weekend. No pressure, no questions, just wanted me to know they care and miss me. They had told him that they wanted me to stay with them for a few days. He didn't like it but they said they wouldn't abandon me. In the midst of this terrible thing something good happened. My settlement meeting has been set for July 11th. My lawyer called me today because I'd left a msg. that his change of address is diverting some of our bills. I was doing so good but hearing that a date had been set me back again. Why can't I get it through my head that this is really happening to us? We are going to be divorced and he will be going away with this woman. He hates me and she is the new love of his life. I sudddenly feel alone all over again. I will never see him again, all that we had is gone for good and I am feeling again that there is nothing left for me. I think about dating but realize that a part of me is still married to him and I somehow feel I would be cheating. Not very rational I know. It's been so long since I felt his arms around me as it once was. I miss it so.