Posted by Kathy on 6/10/2006, 10:31 am, in reply to "Re: Ashamed, lost my head"
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I took Crystal's advice and called to apologize to those I blew up on at the store last week. She was right, I feel better, more like my old self, and know I did the right thing. It's hard sometimes to not want to lash out at those who hurt us; who spent time setting up their new life and then pulled the rug out from under us. That time it included all who had to have know about it and laughed behind my back. It's a daily emotional struggle and today I allowed myself to cry as if my heart were breaking all over again. But I realized a few days ago that it must have been so convenient for them when my mother was dying last fall and I had to be away so much. With the help of those who post here, I will survive this. I am blessed with family, a therapist, and friends. The STBX was the one true love of my life but he is gone...dead.