Posted by kathy on 5/23/2006, 11:12 am, in reply to "Re: Help, You were so right"
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Thanks, April. I just can't get my head to understand how he could carry on this affair with his new "love" and, really, start a whole new life without me even knowing. He snuck out to see her for over a year and still came home to my be every night. I am furious that I am left alone to deal with this pain while he has someone to hold and make plans with every night now. How does this not drive a person insane. I am torn between wanting to hurt him back as badly as possible and wanting all this to just go away. I want to wake up and find it's all been a bad dream. This can't be happening to us, we were so happy and had so many plans. He was planning things up until a few days before he left. If I had not confronted him about his coldness and told him he needed to make a decision about what he was going to do, he might still be here living his lie. I've lost so much weight it's scaring my family while he seems to have gained weight and looks so great.