This statement is true for me too..." i realize that although i was forced into Christianity as a child"... ....however as an adult I re-evaluted what was forced on me as a child and have made my own evaluations regarding religion. I understand your post. All you need to do is search online for books to read about this subject. Fact is your mind is made up already regarding your beliefs. Seems as though you may be looking for something to reaffirm them. "Peace of Mind" comes with your own confidence in your beliefs. Do what is best for you.