Posted by Mrs. X I am not familiar with these forums but i feel have nowhere else to turn to. Seen doctors, seen psychologists, psychiatrists and i am psychologically normal. No health problems either. I am a young professional in the insurance buisness - 24yrs old, some heavy drugs ( like LSD and mush ) in the past but not anymore. Almost died at 9yrs old from bursted appendix, was phasing in and out of a very dark and numb place when it happened. Since i was little - as far as i can rember - i was getting these really weird feelings of someone being with me or near me and watching. My mom remembers when i was 5 i came running out of the living room white as a ghost and was pointing at the living room saying '' the fear is there - '' I come from a very down to hearth family - not religous or into this psyc. stuff - just normal. I must specify nobody EVER whanted to read my cards or anything. Everyone i went to told me to leave right away but never said why. I have lived in a old house where i was very undeasy in my room. It later was correlated by my dad ( a year ago ) that we had lived in a haunted house cause he had felt it too. My grandma died on my 14th birthday on may 14th wich is my birthday date. Since that, i cant go in their house cause i see her in her chair. So does my dad. Anyhow, many times these things happened to me, sometimes i meet someone and i get a flash - a number, a name or whatever and it makes me feel so akward. But for a year or so, i have been getting very active sleep and my BF told me i was speaking other languages, fluently, saying things that did not belong to me and so on. When this happens i get leftover energy that is so wicked - sometimes it is positive but mostly negative and it wrecks my nights. I feel it is not mine and i cant get rid of it. Anyhow, i have learned to deal with this somehow but now, yesterday, i got that same feeling i usually get when i sleep but i was awake. I met my friend's daugther for the first time and when she left, i was hit by something so strong it made me sick. I was very sick and i felt like something was trapped inside of me and i had to get it out. So strong emotions, so weird it made me vibrate from the inside. So knowing that, my questions are: 2- Am i normal or am i sick ? 3- How can i get rid of this ? 4- Are there any pro. associations or groups i could be reffered to ? 5- If i can get rid of it, how can i make it so it dont affect me this much ? Thank you for your time, Mrs x. Feel free to write at red_hush21@hotmail.com
on 8/25/2005, 11:26 am
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Hi guys,
When i tell this to the person they sometimes freak since they usually were either going to call the person i have named them or something like that - but sometimes these infos makes no sens to them as well.
I know i may sound crazy but hopefull someone out there will understand what i mean.
I was worried for her but could not say why. All i could say was that she had to be wathced over closely.
That feeling was SO strong i could barely cope with it. Turned white, puked, shaked and so on...
It all happened very fast and i am very worried now because i was very scary. My friend saw it too and got freaked out.
1 - What am i ? I was told i am a channel but what does this mean ?
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