Posted by Jerri Harris
on 1/13/2005, 9:34 pm
64.136.27.225
My daddy past away 7 yrs. ago and I barely knew him, our relationship wasn't very strong, but I loved him dearly, him and my mom divorced when I was 4 and I wasn't allowed to see him but a few times when I was small, and like 3 times at 12 and 14 the next time i saw him was when he was laying in the hospital bed with a bullet between the eyes. Me and my brother and two sisters had to give consent to pull the plug and one by one we said our goodbyes, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But the one good memory I do have of him is the amazing smell of his cologne " English Leather " when I was little sitting on his lap it would just engulf me. WELL...... just 2 months ago I walk into my bedroom and I almost could'nt believe it, but could it be??? It was THAT smell, the smell that engulfed me as a child!!! The same smell that could NEVER be forgotten......English Leather. And would you believe It *** he has'nt left yet!!!!! every day that I wake up the first thing I do is go to the computer desk, ( cause thats where i smell him at ) and take a DEEP breath. but what does it mean??? Is he trying to tell me somethin??? My husband says he can stay as long as he likes, and my kids keep asking, mommy whats that smell, and I just say " thats papa baby " I try to talk to him the best i can and most of the time if i don't smell him in my head i'll say daddy can you come? I need to talk and BAM not even 2 seconds goes by and the room is filled with his smell. I just need to know what going on? and how long will god let him staY, and also what else can i do to make a better connection with him, like maybe see his beautiful face again!!?? Please Help..... Jerri
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