Truly sadden to hear about the death of you Stepmother. Wish to extend my condolence to you and your family.
Reading your post and letter sounds so Deja Vu. Oh My, I thought I was so by myself in what I’ve gone through in taking care of my sister. You say you went through hell and back, girl I was living in a bottomless pit. Especially while living in L.A. It was nothing nice. Thanks to Clare Terrell for keeping me strong. Love, love that girl. If she only knew. I appreciate you sharing and hope others will share in so much that others can learn. Don’t get me wrong, I love my sister to pieces but girl I sometimes think I am losing my mine with her. Won’t take her medication, leave Dialysis when she wants to, won’t go to her treatment sometimes. Here Doctors constantly calling me. Wore me OUT! All I say is what a sister to do. Right! And my sister has been in church for a gazillion years and she acting like this. Just don’t get it. But let me say this. Through prayer I learn. Let Go and Let GOD! Got her some help big time! My poor children just shake their heads and pray I take drastic measures. I just can’t because she is my sister. I pray every day that I won’t be a burden on my children in my golden years. I was telling this Asian woman in my community my plight, and she told me that she had to take care of her mother and it was nothing nice. She said to me that because of her taking care of her mother she couldn’t see her doing that to her children and that she will kill herself it she was put into that situation. She was adamant about it. I told her I don’t think I can go that far.
Let me say this, just going through it and seeing what she is going through had me thinking and acting. I was told by her doctors that the reason why she had the stroke(s) is because she refused to take her insulin properly, and refuse to take her high blood pressure pills, etc. One L. A. doctor had told me she was “F” up. I kid you not. He used those exact words. So what can you say, Right! Through it all, I’m here for her, and will be till the end. It’s hard but I have to do it. Can’t explain it. A family Thang, Maybe!
With this being said, I’m trying so very hard to take care of myself. Take my pills every day. Get physical every year. Sometimes I am too proactive. I will call my primary care and tell them I am due for my pap, breast, colon, etc., and they would say not yet Ms. Ryan. When they do give me my appointment, I’m there. And……on top of it all, I’ve revamped my will, living trust, POA, Advance directive, and increased my Life insurance. Don’t want my children tripping on me….for real. I know they love me to pieces but you got to do what you got to do. They keep telling me, please Mother take care of yourself. My reply I’m working on it every day. Just don’t beat me down with it. I’m working on it. LOL.
O.K. I will stop because you know me…. Dissertation time. Phoebe I will be sending you something when I get back to Dago and I hope it’s ok. Take care Phoebe “sis” and know we are here for you.
Be Well!
Jerlilia
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