Posted by Di on July 6, 2009, 6:47 am Link: http://my.opera.com/lambchop777/blog/
Message modified by board administrator July 8, 2009, 1:41 am
When I was admitted into the hospital for detox, I ended up in cardiac intensive care.
The drugs had taken their toll on my heart and I was in trouble. One of my daughters came to see me that day and brought me a Bible so that I would have one with me. Because of my addiction, I was admitted for a breakdown, psychosis (from withdrawal), and severe dehydration...this was after my coma. Addiction makes you remember it once had you.
Anyway, my new Bible opened to Psalm 139. Although I had been saved for many years, this was the first time that I realized how much God loved me. I found out that He knew me before I was in my mother's womb. This psalm kept me going...and still does.
Psalm 139
O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall[a] on me,”
Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;[b]
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.
Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
For they speak against You wickedly;
Your enemies take Your name in vain.[c]
Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
I hate them with perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.
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